Ups & Downs

There have been so many ups & downs for us since we first found out that we were having another baby.  Our first up, of course, was the news of the pregnancy along with the complete shock.  Both my husband & myself did not think that we would have another child at this late stage.  My husband jokes that I ruined his 5 year plan.  His plan was that in 5 years all of the kids would graduate high school & be out of the house.  Then we would have time to ourselves.  Well, now we will have time together raising another daughter. :)

The first down we had was the scare of another miscarriage.  It was shortly after we had found out that we were pregnant.  We told Dr. Becker of our loss 4 years ago & that we were concerned this time.  They did a blood test that Thursday of our appointment and then the following Saturday we did another blood test at the hospital.  The on-call doctor called us later that afternoon to tell us that my levels were dropping and therefore I should be expecting to miscarry our baby at any time.  My world fell apart.  I could not believe that we were going to lose our baby.  We went a whole weekend being completely devastated.  We had a follow up appointment with Dr. Becker that Monday.  He too, thought that we were going to lose our baby.  He told us that he wanted to do another, more thorough ultrasound.  Our hearts were breaking but we went ahead with the ultrasound.  That was when our miracle was seen.  Our little "peanut" was alive & doing fine.  Our fervent prayers were answered.

We've had minor ups & downs since then.  Now we are dealing with decreased incomes & I was just diagnosed with gestational diabetes.  At first, I was devastated with the news but I've learned that it's not as bad as it first seems.  I've talked to cousins and friends who had it with their last pregnancies and they are all well.  I've also learned that no matter how down & upset I get, my husband has my back & keeps reminding me.  I was pretty down this Saturday & feeling lost.  When he came in & asked me why I was crying I told him that I was hormonal & the worries on my mind.  This is what my wonderful husband said to me, "We always get through it.  Do not worry so much over it because God has a plan for us and we have to trust in His plan.  That's how I know we are going to be o.k. because He has a plan."  Now, my husband does not talk much about religion and doesn't go to church.  I try to go to church every Sunday and I even teach religious education to freshmen & sophomores.  Yet, I was the one being reminded & taught this weekend.  

God does have plans for each of us and we have to trust in Him & wait for things to happen in His time.  Thank you, Lord, for giving me a wonderful & loving husband that helps to remind me to not sweat the small stuff & listen to You.